A little better

Beautiful weather is helping. Good rehearsal for murder mystery show, pool party yesterday, the kids had s'mores, party projects going well, all helping. The kids are just breaking my heart, though. Little things they say and do, little shows of disrespect, little unkindnesses to each other, little losses and fears that break their hearts - it's all making me tired. I'm failing them moment by moment, and I'm only seeing the big picture and getting perspective after they're in bed and asleep. Can't really go into detail right now, and really, it's nothing major. Just little heartbreaks. Cracks in the mirror.